One of the main things that holds me back from writing or expressing myself, is the fear of inconsistency.​

My feelings, thoughts, and energy levels are always changing.​

I feel this way now; who knows if I’ll feel the same tomorrow, or even five minutes from now? ​

How much are my ideas worth if I know I might change my mind? ​

Or… there’ll be this one thing I want to talk about, but the subject matter is so vast and there’s no way I’ll be able to do it justice and cover all sides. I might as well not even start!​

And what if I do start, and it turns into a whole project, but I lose interest halfway through? Then I’ll either have to finish it and be locked into a prison of my own making – or quit and once again reaffirm my shameful story of inconsistency!​

Besides, no matter how much I want to share, my inspiration doesn’t run like clockwork. It comes when it comes… ​

And sometimes I’ll get inspired, but I don’t have the energy to do anything with it, or I’m supposed to be doing other things, like laundry, or it’s the middle of the night… ​

Is there no end to this madness?! ​

Am I doomed to be an ephemeral cloud of potential, floating around somewhere in the sky, but never touching the ground and creating something real?​

According to the writing style and placement of emojis in this post, now is the time where I’m supposed to entice you with a solution or a piece of wisdom that blows your mind and LITERALLY CHANGES EVERYTHING!!!!​

But I told you, I’m inconsistent. ​

Plus, I feel like not everything has to have an easy solution, ya know?​

All I have is this post. Which I may or may not vibe with tomorrow. Which I may or may not follow up with any time soon.​

And so be it.